.lavender love.
the flower language of lavender is..
waiting for love.(:
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about myself
Anson
alias Axilver
new nick amilky
my maiden name Ansonia
Hello Kitty (frenz gave me this name after i tell her my chinese name intials)
Tai Xing < my childhood choice of name
Taurus
Part RP Student Part National Service
Part-Time Gamer
Loves:
Stars
Chocolates
Ladies not Gals
Beautiful Scenery
Sentimental Moments
Enjoys:
Chillin' wif frenz
Gaming of cs and dota
Thinkin' about this and that
Lamin' and crappin' wif frenz
Listenin' to good music and songs
Viewin' entertaining shows and movie
Hates:
Vegetables
People who dun appreciate
People who dun realise how fortunate they
Gaming Fossils
rave_anson1985@hotmail.com < Msn & Friendster
Rav3_Princ3@hotmail.com < Friendster & Hi5
http://anson-ahshen.blogspot.com < Old blog
Poem 1: ???
When the world moves too fast,
Stop by and watch the world go by,
.......... ( to be continued)
Poem 2: Star Love Who
Star so high
All so bright
Hard to grab
Cause ain't right
Time is ripe
Love by who
Wish List
You are enough
You are equivalent to the world
You are the world to me
lame me:
actually im a really open yet ethical person
im willing to listen provided ppl speak to me
ppl often dun speak to me abt me
hope ppl will help me to improve
by telling me how to change and improve
jux cant do things alone
im jux not very motivated by the idea that
by doing something my life will be better
coz i dun mind being a letdown
but not to the ppl ard me
worldpeace
Anson
alias Axilver
new nick amilky
my maiden name Ansonia
Hello Kitty (frenz gave me this name after i tell her my chinese name intials)
Tai Xing < my childhood choice of name
Taurus
Part RP Student Part National Service
Part-Time Gamer
Loves:
Stars
Chocolates
Ladies not Gals
Beautiful Scenery
Sentimental Moments
Enjoys:
Chillin' wif frenz
Gaming of cs and dota
Thinkin' about this and that
Lamin' and crappin' wif frenz
Listenin' to good music and songs
Viewin' entertaining shows and movie
Hates:
Vegetables
People who dun appreciate
People who dun realise how fortunate they
Gaming Fossils
rave_anson1985@hotmail.com < Msn & Friendster
Rav3_Princ3@hotmail.com < Friendster & Hi5
http://anson-ahshen.blogspot.com < Old blog
Poem 1: ???
When the world moves too fast,
Stop by and watch the world go by,
.......... ( to be continued)
Poem 2: Star Love Who
Star so high
All so bright
Hard to grab
Cause ain't right
Time is ripe
Love by who
Wish List
You are enough
You are equivalent to the world
You are the world to me
lame me:
actually im a really open yet ethical person
im willing to listen provided ppl speak to me
ppl often dun speak to me abt me
hope ppl will help me to improve
by telling me how to change and improve
jux cant do things alone
im jux not very motivated by the idea that
by doing something my life will be better
coz i dun mind being a letdown
but not to the ppl ard me
worldpeace
Friends
Niche ! 34 Haji Lane ! Eileen and Jacky
*!* Niche *!*
My old blog
*Anson*
My ex colleague ++ half half
*JiaYing*
My MIS and Business Law classmate
*LiLi*
RP communication classmates
*Zero*
*AiNi*
*MeiYi*
RP Dota companions
*Matt*
*Ash*
*Yuva*
*Dilhan*
*Alfian*
RP E25B Qi Jie Mei
*Evelyn*
*Viory
*Serene*
RP E25B classmate
*Lena*
RP M Economics
*Syasya*
RP W65P Web MultiMedia classmate
*Vicky*
*Nicole*
*Melissa*
*WenQi*
*PeiYu*
Rp W34G Basic Science+Culture classmate
*KaiXiang*
*Ifah*
*HuiMin*
Rp W64B S.A.D. classmate
*Irene*
*Jessie*
*XueYing*
Rp W15P Computing and Mathe classmate
*Amanda*
RP Gaming.RP
*Jasper*
*Vivien*
RP RoSe
*Lazy*
Prestige
*Hime*
GCA colleague
*Cordelia*
*Derek*
Niche ! 34 Haji Lane ! Eileen and Jacky
*!* Niche *!*
My old blog
*Anson*
My ex colleague ++ half half
*JiaYing*
My MIS and Business Law classmate
*LiLi*
RP communication classmates
*Zero*
*AiNi*
*MeiYi*
RP Dota companions
*Matt*
*Ash*
*Yuva*
*Dilhan*
*Alfian*
RP E25B Qi Jie Mei
*Evelyn*
*Viory
*Serene*
RP E25B classmate
*Lena*
RP M Economics
*Syasya*
RP W65P Web MultiMedia classmate
*Vicky*
*Nicole*
*Melissa*
*WenQi*
*PeiYu*
Rp W34G Basic Science+Culture classmate
*KaiXiang*
*Ifah*
*HuiMin*
Rp W64B S.A.D. classmate
*Irene*
*Jessie*
*XueYing*
Rp W15P Computing and Mathe classmate
*Amanda*
RP Gaming.RP
*Jasper*
*Vivien*
RP RoSe
*Lazy*
Prestige
*Hime*
GCA colleague
*Cordelia*
*Derek*
Saturday, July 01, 2006
yeah.. im typing abt my feelings.. you know wat feelings im typing abt rite?..
its been a long time since im so straightforward and aso mentioning abt my feelings..
now im single as all my dudes and dudettes know..
but i wanna hav somone i can let my romance on..
one who will be my life partner? or jux for a period of time?
i prefer a life partner as its the best out of r/s..
i wanna marry that person..
im waiting for the right one..
but waiting is making me crazy..
not abt acting gay or watever..
its just for fun and purely entertainment purposes..
my dudes said jux go get 1..
its diff for me i guess..
i choose the hard part..
the one and only one..
but its driving me nuts..
and guess wat i did..
i intial-ed a pact wif my best friends that both of us get a gf and all of us hav a group gathering in this coming X'mas...
but loking at the moment..
guess im gonna break the pact..
life is..
i hav tou of being a bad boy..
hav a flirt..
or a fling..
but still..
feels that its doesnt suit me..
i cant bring myself to do it man..
its so un-me..
unlike the anson..
the anson that almost everyone knows..
especially my closer friends who knew me..
that im just so..
dun wat to type abt that..
my friends tease me by mentioning my previous gal i liked..
althoughts its for fun..
althoughts its not as hurting as before..
i feel weird hearing it..
i know it cant hav any outcome..
i tried to get over it..
but still i feel that there is one thing that remains..
my lateness of the question..
late again..
im always late..
guess its my punishment for being the way im in..
but i just wanna find the right feeling, mood and moment..
its that just too much to ask for..
cause its the first time im doing it..
cause im a big woodblock in sec skl times..
when i missed out yuling and a few ones..
the gal that confesses to me..
but i was such a nerd that i didnt know..
silly me..
i was so geeky that i was so afraid..
feel that it gonna be hard on me..
now that im more sound now..
its all seems gone..
no one at all..
is this wat they say..
when you want it..
you will not get it..
but when you dun know it..
it will just appear from no where..
its hurts at time..
but wat can i do..
there was time when i thought of hurting myself..
like wat they call it..
cutting my wrist..
but im scare of pain..
ouch..
some friends say that i should jux be myself and wait..
some say i just get a gal..
some say i not over the previous one..
some say nothing..
so wat should i do..
wait or just recklessly find one..
recenlty i got one who is waiting for me..
i think so if im not wrong..
but she not my type..
mayb im wrong..
it feels good to be woo..
it feels great to be attracted to somone..
it feels even better when you found the right person..
which is it..
well..
at times..
i thought of being a gal..
being woo..
being goolging at..
being chased..
not as in run..
okay..
you people should know wat im typing..
im just being lame..
guess i have type quite a bit..
or a lot..
just unsure of my feelings..
i didnt i will actually type so long..
its making me feel so naggy already..
last but not least..
im gonna be a sitting duck..
waiting to be shot at..
quackquack..
its been a long time since im so straightforward and aso mentioning abt my feelings..
now im single as all my dudes and dudettes know..
but i wanna hav somone i can let my romance on..
one who will be my life partner? or jux for a period of time?
i prefer a life partner as its the best out of r/s..
i wanna marry that person..
im waiting for the right one..
but waiting is making me crazy..
not abt acting gay or watever..
its just for fun and purely entertainment purposes..
my dudes said jux go get 1..
its diff for me i guess..
i choose the hard part..
the one and only one..
but its driving me nuts..
and guess wat i did..
i intial-ed a pact wif my best friends that both of us get a gf and all of us hav a group gathering in this coming X'mas...
but loking at the moment..
guess im gonna break the pact..
life is..
i hav tou of being a bad boy..
hav a flirt..
or a fling..
but still..
feels that its doesnt suit me..
i cant bring myself to do it man..
its so un-me..
unlike the anson..
the anson that almost everyone knows..
especially my closer friends who knew me..
that im just so..
dun wat to type abt that..
my friends tease me by mentioning my previous gal i liked..
althoughts its for fun..
althoughts its not as hurting as before..
i feel weird hearing it..
i know it cant hav any outcome..
i tried to get over it..
but still i feel that there is one thing that remains..
my lateness of the question..
late again..
im always late..
guess its my punishment for being the way im in..
but i just wanna find the right feeling, mood and moment..
its that just too much to ask for..
cause its the first time im doing it..
cause im a big woodblock in sec skl times..
when i missed out yuling and a few ones..
the gal that confesses to me..
but i was such a nerd that i didnt know..
silly me..
i was so geeky that i was so afraid..
feel that it gonna be hard on me..
now that im more sound now..
its all seems gone..
no one at all..
is this wat they say..
when you want it..
you will not get it..
but when you dun know it..
it will just appear from no where..
its hurts at time..
but wat can i do..
there was time when i thought of hurting myself..
like wat they call it..
cutting my wrist..
but im scare of pain..
ouch..
some friends say that i should jux be myself and wait..
some say i just get a gal..
some say i not over the previous one..
some say nothing..
so wat should i do..
wait or just recklessly find one..
recenlty i got one who is waiting for me..
i think so if im not wrong..
but she not my type..
mayb im wrong..
it feels good to be woo..
it feels great to be attracted to somone..
it feels even better when you found the right person..
which is it..
well..
at times..
i thought of being a gal..
being woo..
being goolging at..
being chased..
not as in run..
okay..
you people should know wat im typing..
im just being lame..
guess i have type quite a bit..
or a lot..
just unsure of my feelings..
i didnt i will actually type so long..
its making me feel so naggy already..
last but not least..
im gonna be a sitting duck..
waiting to be shot at..
quackquack..
lavender love.
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