170709,

Day my Dad was born,

i planned a week beforehand to give my dad a surprise,

i told my parents i had duty,

its a bluff,

i actually apply leave long ago,

watched transfomers after weeks it started showing,

went lan for 3 hours,

no one wanted to watch movie with me,

except for my best of best frenz,

LTC Chin,

my primary sch best frenz,

early morning headed back home,

to rest after coughing for a week,

and not able to take mc or day off to rest,

kena of sian becoz of it,

anyway when i woke up in the afternoon,

i went klkk(kia lai kia ke) at cityvibe,

on the way,

this came up on my mind,

'its been a long time that i walk so carefree with such light steps,

i wonder how much i suffered,

i have lost the will to count time,

days passes as through wind slice my face,

my hearts wasnt in tunr to each other,

sky always looks so cloudy,

water doesnt seem to sustain life,

voices are just noises,

sight cant see colors, my skin doesnt felt warm at all',

i kinda like this friday,

relax and carefree,

had a few eye contact moments wif diff females,

was quite shocked through,

anyway now comes the reason why im blogging,

at 2345 when i was waiting for bus at WI,

i saw my 0.5x wif her partner,

i enter a moment of shock and i wanted to hide,

it was a heart breaking sight for me,

but i felt happy when i saw her face,

but i couldnt help but think of it that i wasnt the one,

useless, cowdice, stupid me,

why didnt i try harder when i had the chance,

haiz i cant do anytin right,

can i,

should stop now,

if not,

i will get back to the bottomless pit again,

i want to fly away,

not crawl out,

peace out.